Create something beautiful and yes, this ones for you. Now you know what I was always thinking.. xoxo

I want to create for you something beautiful. Something inspiring. Something real.

I want to write.

I take it back. I don't want to write. I want to paint words. Paint something alive, please. Something that will decompose beneath your soul and set you

                                                                                             free.

Something freaking worth the five minutes you spend staring at the blunt white of a computer screen.

But before I write something, I want to be something.

I want to be something beautiful.

I want to be something honest.

I want to be someone real.

I want to be someone worth knowing.

 

Someone freaking worth the five minutes you spend staring at the blunt white of a computer screen.

 

That's what I am thinking about when I am quiet.

I think, how can I be,
                                      well, how can I be someone,

someone I can live with. someone who actually likes what is left after a hot shower washing away the make up and all of your hipster music.

 

I'd like to be someone I like,

before I keep on trying to be someone you like. 

Because, you know. If you really knew me. That is to say, if I really knew me, I think you'd like that more.