You're my "Best Friend", and i LOVE you. :]

                                        Butterflies...
                        In myy tummy,,
                                  ALL BECAUSE OF YOU.
                             [[stupid best friend. (: ]]

I find myself silently, well, kicking myself for the feeling I get thinking of you. I really hate you sir. I hope you kow that. ((and maybe that way you won't be able to see through my act. and discover that I am, without a doubt, crazy about you. ALWAYS have been. and I fear that I always will be.))

What makes me feel this way you might ask??

well let me tell you, I just so happen to have the PERFECT response:

"I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA!!"

The way I see it, if by some miracle I did know, maybe I'd have a chance to tame this wild beast that has kicked out my common sense, "moved in some furniture, and gave the cat a name"; just the thought of you.........


HEART RACING,

BUTTERFLIES CHURNING,

DORKY SMILE EMERGING...

DARN YOU.

[[and I find myself wrapped up in you, all over again.]]

What is it about you that has me so infatuated?! There are a million reasons why I know I shouldn't want you...  and yet I do. Very much so. Maybe it's the way your heair swoops (perfectly might I add) accross your forehead. The deep brown of your eyes ((which have always been a favorite of mine. )) That smile on your face when we cross paths in the hallway.. the way we've been "best friends" since jr. high..? or maybe it is simply the fact that I will never be able to have you; that fact, I think, makes me want you so much more.

SOOOOOOOOOOO

Here's to you, the boy who stole my heart; Tore it right out of my chest... and the worst part? He doesn't even know that he did it. How easily you got ahold of it,

 ((without even trying, by the way. Now doesn't that make me look pathetic?))

amazes me. Truly. You certainly are something "best friend". And I applaud you! Many have tried to achieve the unachievable, and guess what?? You did it.

[[That silly country song "you had me from hello" doesn't seem so silly anymore. ]]

So take me heart. He needs a vacation for a while anyway. Just promise you'll be nice to him, show him some occasional love ((if permitted by your<3)) and return him in a timely manner. Eventually he'll get home sick, and when he does, just let him go... broken or whole, he'll find his way back. It's fine really:] We'll glue the pieces and move on together like we always do. I'll be just fine. Always am. Always will be. Enjoy:]

Sincerely,

Nicole Hunter Beighley the first<3