Old Beginnings...New Endings.

"Dear ______, you're smokin hot;) xoxo nikki"

              "Dear Nikki, I think you're quite beautiful yourself. love, ______"

"We should probably be best friends."
       
              "I'm cool with BECOMING best friends:)"


So, he taught me to longboard... <3
(( I fell for him in one day ))

and we wrote a story together:

We exchanged words of love, we exchanged words of hate.
There were laughs, there were cries.
We kissed eachother, we punched eachother.
There was passion, there was anger.
We sang, we cried.
There were good times,
                              There were awful times.
We road{longboards} together, we stood together.

summerlove*summerlove*summerlove*summerlove*summerlove*summerlove*summerlove*

Stereo Hearts: Gym Class Heroes.
Everytime I hear that song, I think of you..

It was a bumpy road,
 It was on and off.
I gave it all,
 He took it all.
and it was wonderful,
 but it was so so terrible.

But no matter, it's a good story that we wrote.  A short and complicated one, but a good one none the less. They'll make a movie of us, or a statue, or a monument, or something...

The ending: September 2011<3

We spent a few minutes together that night, it was his birthday. Holding hands, hugging, and laughing out loud. It was the end, but neither of us could face it or even say it.

"I'll comevisit you all the time! It's not that far away..."

It was a lie.
    && I knew it.

But I made myself believe it, becuase it was the only way I wouldn't feel broken. He climbed into his truck. I lingered. I didn't want to face that this was really the end. He was really leaving this time. But I didn't cry. I didn't even look sad. And I confidently left him behind after the perfect final kiss and an "I'll see you soon."

But I didn't see him soon.
                           and I did feel broken.

After it all, I am a better person. I am exactly who I am supposed to be.
Thanks to him for leaving,
and thanks to myself for letting go.
I'm sorry, but I forgive you.

"and I love to forgive and forget, so I'll try to put this all behind us. Just know that my arms are wide open. The older I get, the more that i know. It's time to let this go."
-James morrison

xoxo nikki